Jerusalem ----October 8, 2008 .....As I wrote the below account
5 years ago, the first time retracing steps taken thirty-five
years ago during Yom Kippur in Israel and the US in October
1973, memories began to pour back along with the anxiety and
tears that we all experienced at the time. For many of us, the
scars of war will never heal. Nor should they.
Sitting
in the relative safety of a suburban Long Island home, I first heard news reports
of Arab armies attacking Israel on October 6, 1973. It was not exactly clear what
was transpiring in the Middle-East. News accounts were censored and the media
was not overly kind to Israel. I heard my father say that Israel's UN Ambassador
Abba Eban was to address the United Nations General Assembly. I did not know of
Abba Eban, I was expecting an Israeli to speak with a thick Israeli accent that
most would not understand. Abba Eban had served Israel and Israel's public relations
efforts in a manner that was not appreciated by Jerusalem, but only to world Jewry
which saw this man as a brilliant leader.
Due in part to faulty intelligence
and arrogance, Israel was unprepared for a Syrian / Egyptian surprise attack.
The Yom Kippur War took the lives of 2,688 Israeli troops.
My family
had just extended our green, tree lined, middle-upper class home
in Westbury, New York. Our living room was now twice the size,
with shining, white marble floors, a furry white and grey bear
rug, antique chandeliers and the latest TV and radio players.
I sat down
on one of the soft couches with my father to watch Abba Eban address
the world on a color television set. I watched as this portly
man in a neat two piece suit wearing large black glasses walked
down an aisle at the UN and took his place at the podium. He spoke
clearly with an English accent. A voice which embraced all of
the desperate passion of the moment. His English accent was a
surprise. To an American, we are seduced by this English UK mother
tongue twisting of vowels and nouns. It says to the American ear
that the speaker is "authoritative".
Israeli UN Ambassador Abba
Eban denounces Syria and Egypt for creating war. Eban was the first professional
Israeli public affairs professional to serve the Israeli government. His gifted
talents went unnoticed in Jerusalem as Golda Meir requested F-15's not PR from
the US.
Weighing each
and every word that Eban smoothly articulated, we awaited the
latest news of what Israel was facing. Then I heard a defining
sentence.
"This
was a brutal and unprovoked attack in great mass by Egypt and
Syria across the cease-fire lines," said Eban. Israelis don't
speak like this. They never admit weakness. To use the word "brutal"
meant that Israel was bleeding. At that point I knew that Israel's
very survival was in jeopardy. I said to my father Bernard that
I was going to go to Israel to help out. He shrugged with disbelief.
He must have asked himself where would a teenager find the money
and an aircraft which would fly a young boy into a war zone?
My father
was a Jewish activist, he was and remains a Zionist. He served
as the Chairman of the Transportation fund raising division of
the United Jewish Appeal, was the president of his Temple and
was a consultant to Israel's Ministry of Defense in New York.
I had been
in Israel only the year before as a Kibbutz volunteer. It was
the most romantic summer of my life. To wake up at sunrise, to
be driven by tractor into the lush, green banana fields and then
to sit down for a breakfast of fresh scrambled eggs with sweet
halva was paradise.
It was Ma'ayan
Baruch, a kibbutz located directly on the Israel - Lebanon border
which was founded before the War of Independence by South Africans
and Americans. I also had family in Tel Aviv, warm people who
greeted me as if I was one of their sons. Israel was all that
I expected it to be. A romantic, exotic and pioneering state where
all of the people pulled together. The collective warmth was infectious.
As I left my many months on kibbutz, I promised that one day I
would return to this Jewish state and make it my home.
As Eban walked
off the UN podium and the news anchors began to deliver commentary,
I walked into my bedroom, closed my door and called Kibbutz Aliya
Desk - a center for volunteers to Israel located in New York City.
I asked if I could immediately volunteer for a kibbutz in Israel.
I expected a negative response. Who had time for some kid from
New York who wanted to pick apples at a time of war?
"If
you come to Israel to assist us and promise us that you are not
coming to fight, then we may have room for you on a flight in
the next few days." I had to pay a very small fee as the
flight was subsidized. I went into New York City the following
day for an interview. They accepted me and I was to leave from
JFK airport to Israel on October 11.
My parents
were in disbelief. I remember how my father was proud of my actions,
as my mother cried and begged him not to let me go. But as a young
man, I had decided my course and now had the means to implement
it. I arrived at the El Al terminal with my parents and was rushed
by security up to the El Al VIP lounge. Now it sunk in. Here I
was with a few hundred other people going off to war.
We knew our
lives were expendable as soon as we would step on board the aircraft.
Tears flowed like a river in that terminal. It was a quiet, surreal
scene, where I held back my own tears as not wanting to make the
situation more tense. I kissed my mother on the cheek, smiled
and said I would call her upon arrival. "Don't worry,"
I said. "I am going to pick apples, I will not be shooting
anyone." I stepped on board the aircraft, now somewhat afraid
of what was in front of me but overshadowing this fear was the
knowledge, the adage: "If not me, then who?"
There was
no conversation on the plane. It was not as if you were traveling
to Jamaica on vacation. There was no laughter, only quiet reflection.
Many questioned themselves, would we actually make it to Israel
or be shot down in flight?
I sat next
to a medical doctor who had volunteered as well. He assured me
that all would be okay.
He said
that his specialty was trauma and that he was now assigned to
an army hospital in Israel. I was in good company. These were
people of action. This was the Jewish nation standing up and being
counted when it was most needed.
As we approached
Israel, the pilot made an unusual announcement. He wanted us to
close our plastic window shades.
I guess the pilot, as many El Al pilots who had served as Israel
combat pilots previous to taking these commercial positions, knew
a bit more than we did. Having a "lit candle" of civilian
passengers flying into a war zone was not the best tactic that
one would suggest.
As I looked outside one final time, I saw a grey combat fighter
flying off our left wing just yards away. Then I heard the pilot
make another announcement. "Don't worry - the combat jet
which is flying next to us is one of ours."
Now
the reality of war was all around us. There was no turning back. I thought that
If I lived through this - so would Israel, if I died, then I would have given
my life no different than those who had resisted the Nazis.
As the plane's
wheels touched Israeli soil, we applauded. We were not applauding
the pilot and listening to tunes of a joyful Hava Nagila - we
were applauding the fact that we were alive. That we had made
it past the first hurdle and that we were only minutes away from
physically joining our brothers and sisters in their defense for
Israel's very existence.
The terminal
was empty and dark. All of Tel Aviv was blacked out. Window shades
were drawn on all of the homes and buildings we past. Even the
headlights of cars and buses were painted blue. We were a group
of about 40 people. I later found out that we were a few hundred
foreign volunteers accepted from thousands who had applied.
We were the
"official Israeli war volunteers" and we were greeted
in the kindest manner. But we never forgot for a second that we
were not on the front line -that there were others who were in
far more danger than us and those Israelis who were assisting
us in Tel Aviv were related to brothers, husbands and sons now
in uniform.
The
Yom Kippur War lasted for 3 weeks, starting on October 6, 1973 and ended on October
22 on the Syrian front and on October 26 on the Egyptian front.
It was evening
in Israel. We were taken by bus to a large youth hostel in Tel
Aviv by the Hayarkon River. Holding luggage and wearing backpacks
we mingled quietly outside on the grass next to the buildings.
Then someone started to read our names out. As they went through
the list, we were instructed to enter one of the buildings. As
I walked in, I saw several dining tables all with candles burning.
This was not Shabbat. We were in a blackout. The mood was eerie.
Little conversation, no laughter and much reflection. A bearded
man in his thirties stood up and made a prayer. He then spoke
in English and thanked us for coming to Israel. He said that we
would face very difficult days ahead, but with god's help, that
we and all of Israel would be fine. We began to drink hot matza
ball soup. You could not escape the tension and anxiety.
This was
not the smiling Israel I had known from a year ago, neither was
this Long Island. We were together, but yet alone as we sat and
ate our first meal in the Yom Kippur War.
After
finishing our dinner of chicken and mashed potatoes, we again mingled outside
on the grass. We were taken to our rooms by flashlight.
We awoke early
in the morning and after a brief breakfast, again heard our names
called out. We were taken to buses which would take us to Tel
Aviv's Central Bus Station. It was a busy scene of soldiers coming
and going.
Then I spotted
a long line of dark green IDF ambulances with the white and red
Magan David stars on their sides. These were military ambulances.
With curiosity, I slowly walked over to one of the vehicles. I
discovered that it was an emergency mobile blood donation station.
I looked at the soldier in charge and gestured that I too wanted
to donate blood. He wrote my name down and I stood in line. Next
to me was another young war volunteer from France. He didn't speak
English and I knew no French. We just smiled at one another.
We were both
asked to enter the ambulance at the same time. There were two
cots on either side of the ambulance. We rolled up our sleeves
and as our blood began to drip into plastic bags, we again smiled
at one another, tears began to form, we did not need words.
As we both
stepped off the Israel Defense Forces ambulance, we shook hands.
I said good luck in English and he said the same in French. We
now looked for our buses which were to be identified by number.
Buses which were to take us somewhere in Israel, it was anyone's
guess. After a few hours I found myself on the Israel - Jordan
border.
It was
a quiet journey. The dusty roads were vacant except for an occasional IDF truck,
jeep or tank quickly rolling by.
About five
of us stepped off the bus at Kibbutz Beit Zera. Located in the
Jordan Valley about 15 minutes south of Tiberius, Beit Zera was
another Ma'ayan Baruch, another magical, romantic kibbutz with
palm trees, apple orchards and haystacks.
We walked past the main gate and were greeted by the head of the
volunteers. A one-armed Israeli kibbutznik in his late twenties.
His warmth was evident from first eye contact. A warmth which
remained consistent throughout the ugly, dark days ahead. He led
us across a large, open grassy field to a group of wooden huts.
This was to be home for the next several weeks. All seemed tranquil,
as this is the normal environment for a kibbutz. But the tranquility
lasted less than 24 hours.
At first
it was the super sonic booms of low flying IDF aircraft intercepting Syrian fighters.
We would run out of our shacks after being rattled by these heavy thuds, thinking
that the kibbutz was being bombed. We would stand out in the open field, point
our binoculars towards the sky and watch dogfights taking place above us. We could
make out the Israel planes from the Syrian MIGs. It was always the Syrian MIG
which would be seen exploding or going down in a trail of grey smoke. We would
yell in exhilaration for our brave brothers in the sky, we would laugh and walk
proudly back to our work or beds. But this Hollywood show where the good guy would
always win, would not last for long. Another dogfight, more missiles, but this
time through the binoculars you could clearly see the Magan David Star painted
on the tail or was it a wing, drop from the sky. We fell silent. We cried. We
walked back to our beds for a sleepless night.
After two
days on the kibbutz I sensed something was wrong. There were almost
no men on the kibbutz. They were all in the reserves. Our job
was to keep the kibbutz functioning. Whether it was in the factory,
the cotton fields or in the kitchen we did our best to keep morale
high. On the third day, I walked over to the volunteers' bulletin
board and my mouth opened.
On a piece
of yellow ruled paper tacked onto the cork board was a sign stating:
"Premilitary Training for Volunteers."
One of the conditions for which many of us were not pleased to
accept was that we were not going to Israel to fight.
Now they were offering us weapons training. Within 24 hours we were taught how
to fire World War 2 carbines, instructed where we could find mortars and grenades
and the positions around the kibbutz that we should take up if the kibbutz was
attacked. There was no more magic or romanticism associated with this kibbutz.
The war was not going well and we felt it.
I
spent one day working at the kibbutz pool and became friendly with the man who
managed it. I didn't see him for a few days and then I spotted him in the kibbutz
dining room. He was sitting at a table by himself. With a big smile I walked over
to him and asked him how he was. He responded: "my son is dead." I had
no words. I was in shock. We were all in shock.
"The
situation has become very bad. We will be lucky to see the sun set this evening ..even
luckier to see the sun rise tomorrow morning. I thank you from my heart for being
here for helping us now I wish all of you and us good luck."
As the war worsened
for Israel, one afternoon all of the volunteers were called into a meeting set
for 5:00 p.m. Having been on a kibbutz, I thought nothing of this meeting
except for some kibbutz bureaucracy about to take place or the kibbutz secretary
was now, finally going to introduce himself. I was right, it was the kibbutz secretary,
but it was not about bureaucracy or introductions. Without wasting anytime he
said these words: "The situation has become very bad. We will be lucky to
see the sun set this evening ..even luckier to see the sun rise tomorrow
morning. I thank you from my heart for being here for helping us now
I wish all of you and us good luck."
Israel
takes the offensive and crosses the Suez Canal. Russia responds with the
threat of using paratroopers. The world was now on the brink of WW3
You
could hear the proverbial pin drop on the floor. What was actually happening in
the south that for which we were completely unaware of was that Israeli troops
had successfully crossed the Suez Canal. They were now marching towards Cairo
and Moscow had just told the US that if the Israelis did not immediately leave
Egyptian soil, that they would deploy paratroopers within 24 hours against the
Israelis. We were facing World War Three. The kibbutz secretary, having been briefed
by IDF home front command intelligence, expected the Jordanians to enter the war
and over run the kibbutz.
We walked
slowly back to our shacks. Not a word was muttered. We were just
told that we were living our last hours. All we could do was look
at one another. We began talking about our families in the States,
in the UK and Australia. All of our radios were on. We tried to
maintain contact with the kibbutz secretary, but to no avail.
We were alone. When we stepped on board that El Al aircraft we
knew very well that this scenario could take place. But none of
us ever imagined that this could or would happen. We were not
prepared. How does one prepare to die?
It was the
longest night of my life. As the sun's first rays began to peak
over the Jordanian mountains, over the Golan Heights which were
nestled at our very door, I remember hearing the sounds of birds
singing. The sound of factory machinery drilling and cutting metal
and wood. The sun rose and we were alive.
I put on a
pair of running shoes, as I did often to start my day and set
out with a run to the kibbutz entrance and then around the kibbutz.
As I approached the entrance of the kibbutz I saw a mass of people.
I slowed to a walk. Then as I got nearer I saw that they were
carrying an Israeli flag draped coffin into the kibbutz. I stared
and cried. I turned around and again retreated to my kibbutz shack.
I took off my shoes and just lay in bed.
By
this point a very deep cloud of depression hung over the kibbutz. We volunteers,
whose job it was to keep the kibbutz functioning and keep morale high could no
longer manage a smile.
Finally,
I suggested to my roommate Jeffery, a schoolteacher from London, to hitchhike
into Tiberius. We needed to get out of this environment. Without hesitation, we
grabbed our shoes and some money and made our way to the kibbutz entrance. An
army truck stopped and we got into the back. It was a bumpy ride but it was heaven
just to leave Beit Zeir. Tiberius was wall to wall soldiers. Some preparing to
go the Syrian front, others with mud stained shirts enjoying some Rest and Relaxation
in the many pubs.
As
Jeffery and I walked into one of the pubs, we realized that we were the only civilians
there. We ordered some beer. Many of the soldiers stared at us. In retrospect,
they were most likely thinking to themselves why we were not in uniform. One soldier
walked over to us and said something in Hebrew. I responded by asking him if he
spoke English. The tension immediately turned to laughter. "You are the
volunteers, you are the volunteers who have come from the States and England -
yes?" We smiled. I was not quite sure if "we" were the volunteers
he was speaking about. "You are the heroes who left your homes to help us.
What do you want to eat? What do you want to drink? You pay for nothing,"
he said.
Another soldier
walked over to us and took out a plastic bag of green peppers.
"I picked these peppers just outside of Damascus - I want
you to have some," the soldier smiled. This was an ambush.
A friendly ambush for as we placed the peppers in our mouths our
throats began to burn and eyes began to tear. These battle weary
soldiers were having a joke on us and we could not be happier.
This is why we had come to Israel. We were finally home. And we
were alive.
Editor's
note:
On this Yom Kippur evening in 2008, Israel is not the same innocent
country as it was back in 1973. On this evening the Israel Defense
Forces, our ground forces, our air force, our naval submarines,
the Israel internal security Shabak, the Israel external security
Mossad, the Israel police and several Jewish media organizations
are at their desks working.
As long as Iran, Syria, Islamic Jihad, Hamas, Hezbollah and al-Qaeda
continue to declare to "wipe Israel off the map" Israel
will stand tall. Let it be known that here in Israel - on this
sacred of sacred days - we are watching everything in Damascus
and Teheran. Nothing will go undetected on or outside our borders.